Wednesday, May 28, 2008
10:55 PM
let me rant wat happened today
had FP ajer..today
fat was sick. pity her
early morning. otw to class...
saw fazly! that ME guy...
then.. saw mat rep!
pastu... aft class...
went fr break...
did DLE!
n we're done with DLE!
baik uh!
then, we headed back to class n met zebra!
yessah!
zebra dok!
haha.. anw. i bought my colored contacts alr
then.. aft maths.. it was home sweet home
super damn tired right nw
im taking a short break here
family matters are just so bugging me
and i dun think i am doing my job as a sister
haiz
i dont even know wat to do with her anymore
i really really hope Allah will knock some sense into her
like totally..
haiz...
sis, i am glad that u are trying ur best to do ur work whenever possible
i appreciate that
but...things that happened like juz nw..
i cant help it...
but to put wat i really thought
sis, i just want u to THINK and REFLECT!
dont blame others neither am i blaming u!
many people have made mistakes
but please, just sit down and reflect what you have done
i kinda agree to what mum had just said
scold me all u want..
i dun give it a damn
you want me to treat u like a kid?
if u dont, behave like a young adult!
honestly, i cant take it anymore...
i cant be bothered to beleteh to u anymore...
but... if i dont, u'll keep on doin it
at tyms... i feel that i side u too much
but when i do this... i want u to knw.. that i am there fr u when u're in trouble
but u also need to knw that..
i need to be strict to u so that u wont get any scoldings
tym n again i tried to tell myself not to pamper u
but... i couldnt help it.. to see that mum and dad sometimes misunderstood u
i protected u..
yet... this is wat happens
at tyms.. i am disappointed with u
but i din show it coz i want u to knw that i am there fr u whenever u need me
i'm sorry fr nt being a good sis to u...
i juz wish, hope and pray to Allah that u will change